Jacob has a cold and ear infection =(

Jacob said HI!!!!

Today at 2pm! He woke up from his nap, I  grabbed him and took  him to my bed to lay down together.. I said hi and he said hi back! yes I am so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He repeated what I said. proud mommy here!

We had a great weekend! My sister Natalie who lives in Vegas came to visit us. We went to 2 different malls, an outlet, we ate at Lucille's and San Pedro Fish Market. Jacob loved being out =D


After dropping my sister off at the bus station yesterday, I decided to stop by the church where we had the services when my grandma passed away. Jacob and I went in and as soon as we did he was laughing and moving all over the place HE LOVED it. I lowered my head to thank God for everything he has blessed me with, Jacob grabbed my face and lowered his head to mine. It was an amazing feeling and I know Jacob felt it too because seconds later he was humming a sound so beautiful that echoed throughout the whole church. It was his first time going and it won't be the last.

Here is a picture of Jacob with his grandpa: 

a letter to Jacob... (NICU days)

Jacob,

Mi amorcito lindo <3 Mommy misses you soooooo MUCH. It's 4am on Feb 12, 2012, a Sunday. Your dad is still sleeping and I'm awake just thinking about you. We have gone through a lot with you, you are such a strong little boy you have made it this far. All you need to do now is tolerate your feeds . You can't coordinate how to do all 3 things- suck, swallow and breathe. You know how to suck really good and you LOVE your pacifier. I keep telling you to take it slow when you have your bottle but you want to get all the milk. You scared me yesterday when you were really tired after I bottle fed you your heart rate and O2 came down (about 4 times) every single time something happens to you my heart stops beating. I just LOVE you too much. I want to hold you, love you and protect you and I never ever want you to suffer. I dream of the day that you come home to daddy and to me. That we can have you 24/7. That I can wake up and turn around and you're there. It's so difficult to wake up and not have you by my side. People think I'm crazy when I drive to the NICU at different hours of the day and night but I am crazy.. crazy in love with you... your my son and I want to be there with you FOREVER and Always.

Love, mommy

Wow! that was a year ago and let me just say that he now hates pacifiers lol after the NICU he didn't want it. It's almost 4am right now and I haven't been able to sleep for the last few days, I keep looking at him and just thanking GOD for the blessing he has given me. <3

Jacob started crawling today! I don't really think he likes it, he likes standing up because he likes to grab things from the tv stand or the couches. He is such a troublemaker. He did the cutest thing today.. he came over and wanted me to pick him up, i did and he just smiled and gave me the biggest hug ever! Then he looked at me again smiled/laughed and hugged me again (he did this about 4 times), his daddy came over and he reached out so his dad could grab him and he did the same thing to him. I know it might be something small for some people but it meant the world to me.

Jacob's favorite song

                                                           Your little hand's wrapped around my finger

And it's so quiet in the world tonight

Your little eyelids flutter cause you're dreaming

So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light

To you everything's funny, you got nothing to regret

I'd give all I have, honey

If you could stay like that

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up

Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up

Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you, won't let no one break your heart

And no one will desert you

Just try to never grow up, never grow up

WARNING!!! I AM NOT A SINGER! LOL AND I AM LOUD SO PLEASE LOWER THE VOLUME... I EVEN GOT SCARED WHEN I LISTENED TO IT BUT YOU CAN SEE HOW HAPPY JACOB GETS. 

Jacob and I have been awake since 1am. We have been cuddling, watching tv and eating snacks. Yeah.. yeah I know it's bad but you know what? I don't care because this is what I DREAMED about all those days in the NICU. He usually doesn't let me cuddle with him so I will always take advantage of it whenever I can. Just to update you on his PT well he isn't crawling yet.. he army crawl but he wants to start getting up on his feet. I need to take a video or upload one so you know what I'm talking about. We also went to see his neurologist and she said he is doing very good, testings will be done in April but as of now she doesn't think he has CP and in case he does it will be very mild.